I
apologize for my sudden disappearance here on my blog...my life
completely changed over a month ago. Early Saturday morning on December
5th, my Mom was hit by a car in which the driver lost control on the
icy road, and she killed about 50 feet from our driveway in Wisconsin as
she was nearly home from her twice daily walk. She was young, she was
healthy, she had plenty of life to live, and she was my best friend. I
obviously wasn't in a place to write here or be creative partially
because I was so busy helping my family, spending time with all of them,
taking on the daily tasks that my Mom did, and trying to understand why
this could happen to someone so wonderful. I know that everything
happens for a reason, our life is predestined for us, and that God must
have needed her in Heaven more than we needed her here on Earth. But
that certainly doesn't make the days, hours, or minutes go by any
easier. I miss her more than I ever thought was imaginable. I talked
to her nearly every day on the phone and sometimes twice a day or more.
I'd call to tell her what my plans were for the day, if I was going
out, when I was heading to work and had some time to talk, when I was
waiting between auditions, to find out what she and Dad had planned for
the night, how her job was going, excited about when we'd get to see
each other next, about guys and going on dates, and pretty much
everything else. I could tell her almost anything, gave far too many
details at times, but I know she always appreciated that honesty, and
that was important. I've been trying to take things one day at a time,
while some are easier than others, that last month while I was back in
Wisconsin was really just a blur of emotions and emptiness. The last
two weeks here in LA have been jam-packed, which has really been great.
My friends have kept me so busy and booked all my time between all of
my jobs so that I have something to do. The support from everyone has
been unwavering and appreciated beyond any words that I could say.
Thank you everyone for your patience, support, love, and kind words;
they have helped me through this time and will continue to do so as the
days, months, and years go by. Thank you to my readers for allowing me a
safe space to share my life and moments with all of you.
My Mom meant so much to so many people and I'm grateful to be her forever little girl. I pray for strength every day...I love and miss you, Mommy <3
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